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Kelly Clarkson on emotional ‘American Idol’ performance: ‘I was on a slip and slide from hell’

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Original winner of the first “American Idol,” Kelly Clarkson, opens up to Ellen about why she was so emotional during the performance on Thursday’s “The Ellen DeGeneres Show.”

Kelly also talks to Ellen about how much her baby loves “Finding Nemo” and that they are so excited for “Finding Dory”. Plus, Kelly performs “Piece by Piece” from her latest album of the same name.

On Her Emotional Performance…

Ellen: If you didn’t see it… first of all were you surprised by the reaction that we all had the next day?

Kelly: Yes. I came off almost in tears for a different reason because I was so embarrassed. I was like Oh God this is my final thing on Idol and I could not hold it together. I was almost losing it almost the entire song.

Ellen: I know.

Kelly: I was proud of myself for making it as far as I did. My husband knows me well. I came off stage and he was like don’t ruin it. Don’t ruin the moment. Because I was like it was so embarrassing. I cried the whole time. I didn’t realize it was gonna be that bad. And we were rehearsing that day and I just couldn’t get through it. My one year old is running around the same hallway as I was 19.

Ellen: Explain what the song is why it’s emotional in itself.

Kelly: And The song is incredibly sad … It’s just incredibly… it’s sad, but hopeful.. cause a lot of us we didn’t have a bar to set as far as finding love and relationships. Or friendships in any form. So my sister and I had a conversation afterwards I ended up writing this song about how lucky we are because we both found incredible fathers and just lovers and men and just partners. I feel really lucky because I feel like a lot of girls with daddy issues don’t end up that way, we end up going the same.

Ellen: You found a great guy.

Kelly: I did.

Ellen: He’s a great husband and a great father.

Kelly: And he was there my little girl was there my little boy was like turning circles in my stomach. It was like nostalgic. It was the last time I was gonna be on Idol and it’s ending. I was screwed from the get-go.

Ellen: You’re pregnant.

Kelly: Emotionally. I was on a slip and slide from hell.

Watch “The Ellen DeGeneres Show” weekdays at 3 p.m. on CBS 6.